I write down what I am scared of weekly

Unspecified fear is more powerful than specific fear. Vague dread runs in the background indefinitely; written-out worst cases get evaluated, contested, and usually shrunk by daylight. This is fear-setting, not affirmation — you're going to make the fear more concrete, not soothe it.

Dump fear processes to disk

Anything held only in working memory will keep cycling. Write it to disk and the loop ends.

Do this today.

Stop letting unnamed fears chew up RAM. Serialize them onto paper.

Your move.